I’ve never lost a child. Or a parent. I don’t know what that feels like. I can’t imagine. My boys are at school right now and I’m trying to remember their voices and I can’t. As much as my thoughts have been consumed by Friday’s tragedy, it’s incomparable to what families and friends of the victims are experiencing.
I know when things are sometimes chaotic at my house, I wish for peace and quiet. But when I get what I wish for {i.e. the boys are spending the night at Grandpa’s and Mabrey is sleeping}, after only a few moments the silence is deafening. It feels unfamiliar and eery. I turn on music or the TV to mask the silence.
I’m guessing there are many “too quiet” homes in Connecticut today. It’s the kind of quiet that no words of solace can fill up. It’s the kind of quiet that can’t be broken by a radio or a television. It’s the kind of quiet that is heavy. It’s the kind of quiet that is silent to onlookers but as loud as hell to those experiencing it on the inside.
In an act of empathy, will you please join me in capturing slices of silence today? Moments of reflection as well as moments of true silence. Silence of the mind. Stop your words. Stop your thoughts. Be present. Hear all the sounds of life around you. Don’t think about them – just experience them. Be grateful for them. Find peace within them.
The ring of an alarm clock…the birds tweeting outside…the sound of a running refrigerator…bustling traffic…pelting raindrops…a barking dog…a baby’s shallow breaths…noisy kids.
family life